Venus/South Node in Pisces at the moment. Have some compassion for yourself. It can feel like a strange mixture of love and disgust all at once. Some ugliness will surface and that’s fine. It’s a bit confusing and it might seem like the light is there but somehow just out of reach. Tolerance and patience for whatever state of mind you find yourself in will help. No need to jump to conclusion about your shortcomings or some other imagined faults. It might hurt a little but there is no need to nail yourself to the cross. You’re going to be ok.
Venus just left the dark and brooding waters of Scorpio for the promised land of Sagittarius.
The year begins with our gaze set in the far distance and we are filled with unrestrained hope for all our future ventures. Venus in the fire sign of Sagittarius gives us momentum and a need to feel the potentiality in the mundane. She will travel through the sign of the archer until January 23rd titillating our desires for more freedom within our relationships and a need to expand beyond what we already know.
Venus in Sagittarius is her own master and she will not be tied down by a possessive partner. Fresh air runs through her veins and she is always ready to explore uncharted territory.
She is a mixture of casual and haste, enthusiastic and liberated with a broad smile and a sparkle in her eyes. Her love is one for the vast spaces and the wild unknown. Let her roam and she might come back.
Seeing the Lilith glyph in my head, making connections between charts, transits, people, events. Not awake but not sleeping, something else. My dad calls it working at the office, I call it the Mercury-Pluto conjunction; obsessing over something until their insides get squeezed out.
Earlier yesterday a friend that lives close by dropped by my house. I hadn’t seen him in a year or so. He told me he just wanted to lay down on my couch and listen to me talk about his chart. His life is not going the way he wants to. He has a child with a woman that he loves…loves to hate. He is miserable. He hates his life and he hates her. They are not together anymore. Friends with benefits, or maybe more like foes with benefits in this case.
I pulled out his chart: Mars rising in Aquarius, Uranus on the midheaven…it make sense, it’s impossible to talk without him cutting me off. I recognize myself. Fuck the World he says.
Venus conjunct Lilith in the 12th house. That’s harsh man. Now I get it. That’s his blind spot; he loves to hate. Aphrodite meets a beast it’s fun, it’s wild…until it turns sour, then it’s really destructive. In love with chaos, like a descent into the underworld through the medium of love. It could be a nice opportunity but one does not leave the realm of Hades without a few scars.
To get another clue I looked at his ex (the mother of his child) chart. I had it from a few years ago when she was still living around here. She is born with Lilith rising conjunct her Ascendant. You can’t make this up. So simple, so elegantly played out. This man is in love with Lilith what else can I tell him?
The symbols speak for themselves.
They contain a whole world of experience and sensations.
A key that unlocks a door.
It’s a delicate matter.
It’s Saturday. Samedi. Saturn day! The Moon is still in Taurus and will briefly oppose Saturn and then move into Gemini later tonight.
Venus in Leo is applying to square Saturn in Scorpio.
It’s Saturn time baby
Venus and Saturn are an odd pair. We can think of Saturn as having to be mature and assuming our responsibilities and Venus as our desire for beauty and ease.
Venus adorns herself with love-surrounded by the intoxicating smell of a thousand roses.
Saturn wise and reliable is dedicated to the task of turning lead into gold.
When Venus and Saturn are in a hard aspect like this it could be that you have to work extra hard to find the sweet spot (Venus) within your current limitations (Saturn).
Or it could be that you have been so liberal with your time, going out, socializing and having fun. Running away from some important matters and now you have to deal with the bill and the paper work and it sucks.
How much compromise do you make for the sake of long term benefits? Can pleasure and responsibility coexist? Is your patience being tested?
What kind of relationship do you have with relationships? With Saturn/Venus relationships (to ourselves and others) are under scrutiny.
There has to be a happy medium between instant gratification versus restriction and control.
Too much of too little can leave you famished.
Too much cake will make you sick.
Is there such a thing as too much of a good thing?
What does your heart seriously desire?